SapphirE BlueS: Collide
Friday, October 07, 2005
「 EnjoyzZ 3:56 PM 」


well..today sumthing happen to me..its da 1st time...After tuition, follow Kel home then went for dinner at 1 utama...went to Ms Read for dinner...while walking in i saw lady...she looks very femiliar...can't remeber her until i saw xiao xi running out.... then it strikes me. in my mind "omg!!she is here...wut to do..!! " i look inside but can't see her...soo i quickly squad down...call my mum to go to another restaurant but then its too late....she is already talking to da waitress.. soo god no choice but to go in...i walk pass her table...try to ignore her...n just walk past...but then suddenly out of da blue my hearts stop for awhile..it went numb...i feel scared..my legs become shacy..my whole body shivers...after seeing her...donno wut to do but just to go to da table...when i sit down i hold da spoon...i can see it shake!!! my sis ask me.wuts going on.. she knoes tat sylvia was there...my mum too then ask me why am i shivering..."did u did sumhing wrong in da relationship " my mum ask..then my sis told her tat sylvia was my ex....n stuff...i jst cant emagine tat i will shiver...omg!! wuts wrong wit me...da whole day i fell afraid..i see her i m afraid..did i do anything wrong? omg..haihzZ... mayb i did...n i juz knoe tat she had a new bf d...hope she enjoys it huh..she deleted my number from her phone..trying to say tat she doesnt want me to b in her life again i soppose so...well wut can i do? nth... she hates me ...let it b... i tot i let gooo...but when i see her all tis things happen to me..wut does tat soppose to mean? she told me she already kkep those feelings for me deep inside of her..but not throw away..y is she still keeping it?? she told me that she check my blog to see wheather i m interested in any gals anot... y is she doing this? i m damn confuse...need lik yung's guidens again..my probs are alll back!! i m sooo dead..n next monday is my 1st spm paper..ICT paper...3 hours in da lab...haihz..how...n my probs are all back herre...is this god's plaining? i hope not...dead...omg!!! wut are her intensions? n mine? why is this happening to me??!!! why!!??!