Friday, September 30, 2005
actually i was gonna sleep soon d..its actually 1 o'clock d now...but sumthing juz hit me all of a sudden. its about love in me. i just visit sylvia's blog, she overcome her past already but why can't i do the same. Lik Yung says opportunity is given to me, angels are by my side providing girls to me, letting me choose, i got Sharon, Regina, Amelia, Jeslyn, Sheue Yng and Hui Yueng ... i got so many choices but i don't dare to start, its rigt infront of me,Lik yung ask me what i wish for.. i said i wan happiness and i don't want the past to haunt me again, sylvia can easily overcome it, now she is already interested with another guy. me? i clearly got so many in front of me but i don't dare to take the first step, Sharon is crazy over me now, i worry if she keeps it up i will hurt her, my deepest fear is to hurt a girl, i don't want it to happen, people says its normal to hurt, but to me its just not right to do so. i wont feel good if i hurt someone, the feeling is bitter. people says "the door of opportunity only opens once" but what opportunity it will lead us to? It could be happiness and sadness. Inside of me now is hungry for love, I m desperate. but inside of me also holding me back, saying "is she the right 1?" other side saying "she is your neoghbour, u like her n u can see her everyday if u wan" other side saying again " what if u hurt her? sylvia is also ur neighbour...look at the conclusion of the story.. do u wan it to happen?" there is this crazy conversation in my head talking, thats why all of a sudden i change fro mhappy to angry in a *snape* soo what am i suppose to do. i think i am not ready for a relationship. When i have 1, i wont know what to do, its like i am playing the female part in the relationship, i don't know what am i suppose to do, will i offend her if i do this or i do that? its weird. i worry most now is sharon, is he hurt? i don't know. drop some advice to me please. i am so puzzled!! its hard to control. Hui Yueng tells me this "Friends forever...but you don hear relationship forever? right? it doesn't rimes" its meaningful. maybe for now friends will do. i m not ready. follow my dad's advice.." treat every girl good and when the time is right, u can easily pick the right one straight away" :P
this is what you get for screwing up your past!!
lots of luv,
~~ Wae Lern ~~
well long time din update my blog d...donno wut to update..but lots have happen this few days.. trails is over...next stop...!! SPM!!..kekefinnaly its all gonna b over soon..then a new life begins..kekek now i like tension's song d..they can sing...n their songs are meaningful to me..ekke its fun..last saturday nite was da school leo club mooncake festival party...have it in school...spend da whole nite wit sharon...keke cute cute....she is loving n everything but onli form 2...ekek nice to b wit her...kawaiiineshhhh....:P then have lots of fun..my team won da treasure hunt stuff...got candles for winning...lol..cannot expect much from this kinda stuff....n btw!! big news!!!! i no longer wearing bracess d!!! wooooohoooo...keke sooo nice...!! all this while..its finally gone!! lol...:Phehe anyway i will stop here la....keek continue sum other time...:P
*its not that i don like u...i like u as a pet sis...but i don wan to take da risk again...i don wan it to happen like b4...wut happen in my last relationship din turn out good...sooo i don dare n i don wan to hurt u....:) soree..*
lots of luv,
~~ Wae Lern ~~
Monday, September 19, 2005
ehheh today mooncake festival...sooo nice...start my day by waking up at 4.30am to go for PJ Half Marathon...Sheue Yng was there wit her sis...i did badly...!! sobs...got 2h 20m...haih...coz of rain lo...raining like cats and dogs.. sooo cold...but nice.its fun.:P Sheue Yng got 17th place got medal summore...congrats.:P can run!! but lazy...swt...lol... yesterday kel come over to my house for some mooncake festival thingy...lol..at nite got a small gathering..sheue yng, me, kel, yvonne, yvonne's sis, sheue yng's bro n sis, jia wei, wei lynn, yvonne chua, and jia wei's friend...we were having a small party...playing lantern...fun fun..walking around da area...soo nice holding cute lanterns...wakakaka... got bully by shee yng's bro...aihhhss... sadnya...nvm lerr... cute ma...enjoy da whole nite...1st is my place then sheue yng's place then yvonne's place...walk walk walk...fun fun...sheue yng got addicted adi!!! cycle my bike 1 time then gila d...zoom here zoom there...lol...next thing she'll b calling me saying "wae lern ar? can lend me ur bike plxx? ekek ^^"
love hanging around them...its cool...love da company..anyway tats all i guess got anymore later then update la...:P blek..
Lots Of Luv,
~~Wae Lern~~
Thursday, September 15, 2005
This month is a grand month for me...i able to see clearly now...in ppl n life...everything is sooo clear...this month lots of guuuuuddd stuff happen....okok lets start... first thing is...ermzzZ...i saw a B**** inside of sumbody* guess who? hehe next is...i got tunas harapan in school wooohoo... me n kel got it...yea!! bros..!! the happy thing is tat i m the only person in class who have it...muahahaha damn bad..keke...but its funny though, of all people, why me? hehehe the teachers sees something in me...i guess...good ya...Blek...next is...running is my main sports now..its fun!! got cool buddies.. all in their thirties, really cool dudes n gals...the gang got Gane..a damn funky indian..he is not those typical indians but a mix i think his wife is an austrailian chinese..damn cool..then kok khee..a swimmer like me when he was young..a very good role model. a very determined guy, have a happy family now. then there is Li Sar, around 20+ still single i think..a super runner... just got RM600 for her previous run in putrajaya.got below 20th placing, she deserves it sooo much then there is Chris a hot chick from myanmar come all da way to malaysia for business then she is in....a very active gal...she plas tennis..swims..run.. cycles...n lots more...really good...got a really nice body...then its steven..a tall guy...cool dude...loves to crack jokes...really apreciate itthe there is my dad...a cool old man..the 1 that brings me into running...got to really thank him for doing that....without him i m nothing now..keke...then last but not least is ME!! da youngest runner in da team, not tthe fastest but ok ok la...fastest s Li sar...we are call the "Chialat Team" lol...no joke...serious.. hehe this month i got 3 runs total..back to back every sunday..1st week is the adidas King Of The Road. 10 km then was PutraJaya Half Marathon, 21km...its killing me but its fun...:P n this sunday its da PJ half Marathon where the real competition starts...:Peverybody gonna fight wit each other... haihzZ.. da presure is on!! omg!! this run i m running for my "Skins" a running brand...a over all suit to run on...keeps ur body dry...worth around 400+ aus$ oooooOO..ekek...have to do 21km in sub 2 hours.. donno can i make it or not... during the putrajaya run i did 2h12m...have to PUSH!!! can lerr...keke...now m looking for da celebrity of Pacesetter Club... bum into a pretty gal during adidas n putrajaya run...she spoke to me but i was too busy catching my breath..so i gave her a short msg...forgot to tell her my name...haihzz. opps.!! ekkeanyway.. hope that i bum into her again in da PJ half...hard to find a gal that is around da same age as me doing 21km...she is da 1st gal i saw...cool...anyway here is where i stop...keke... chiaozZ this is a damn lucky month!! wooohoo..a very good start for everything.:P
Lots Of Luv,
~~Wae Lern~~
Sunday, September 11, 2005
The table's turn...!! keke...things sooo chnge...ekke
very happy this days ehehgot phrasing from jia...ekek n aunties...for making nice cheese cake...lol..:P 1st time n its nice...:P i also like it..:P
luv jia sooo much...:Pkekek(my cousin)lol...now got exams...!!sobss.!!!how? study lorrrr....tmr got 21km run...putrajaya half marathon...its gonna take 40 min to reach there from here..:Pneed to wake up at 4.30...sobs... gonnab walkinglik a duck 4 a week adi...lol...
sooooooo my blog still quite simple....wait wait 1st...take time...keke still waiting for my com to come bak...blek...thx4 passing by..:P
~~Wae Lern~~
Sunday, September 04, 2005
well...y change huh....no reason...yea rite...ppl need to change for da better...well my life suck!!!
Last nite i ask her to give me a confirmation wheather to come bak to me...hehe...y?? i wan her to ask herself this question...the more time she hav...my chances becomes thinner...she will ask her friends...especially YUN!!!! da one tat knows me n don treat me as a friend...think i m juz sumbody u meet on da street....she say wut? "i onli noe u bcoz of wei'' sooo damn self centerered...bcoz of ppl like her i don dare to drag da process she can polute her mind for gods sake!!!sehe might think tat i m wrong...or wut i don care anymore..she decides wut she wants..she might thin tat yun is good for her...go ahead...i m not afraid of wei...but yun...she can polute her mind...n maybe wei can fall into her trap or wut so ever....who knows?? mayb wei sees sumthing in her... but i don like her...n can u belif it ? i actually say she is pretty...omg!!! i m sooo wrong...pretty on da outside...but inside? omg lets not go there...no offense...she likes to tell it out...so am i...i m being toooooo soft to gals d...n tis is wut i get in return...well i was wrong to gals...y cant every gals b like...sue yen...shao yong? or ayb czetrine? they r soooo kind...ppl lik yun, eling...? yea...wut r they? if u r here answer tat ques by urself..u don need me to help u wit tat im sure...u know wut? these gals don even deserve my friendship at all!!no point sacrificing for them...wasting my time... its becoz of ppl like yun ..society today is sooo bad...raping cases went up...thats y...u all take thigs for granted to guys..haihzz... being good is a good thing..but don b tooo good..!!!i hav to stop going after her....even if we gt bck together.. i don think yun will happy bout that...i don wan chaos to occur bcoz of me...sooo its better like tat...:P...n 1 thing gets me thinking wei....the second time we get bak together...its NOT y second chance but urs...i din do anythng wrong in our 1st relationship rite?? think about it...wut actually happen...ask urself...i m always confuse...but not now...lik my wut angel say...."everything happen 4 a reaon"...:Pwei...when u r reading this...u can b ngry wit me..do wut u wan...i wan to express my feelings to da world....juz like u n ur blog...i hope u can see tat..:P take care ya..god bless...u might not see everything today..but u will see it 1 day..:Pn 1 more thing.... don take me lightly...!! n don ignore my msgs!! argh...it juz gets me burning.!!keke juz wanna let u knoe...how would u feel if ppl do tat to u? ask urself...:P
GOD BLESS
Lots of luv!!...
Wae Lern..
